i have my accounts paper in about 2 hours and here i am siting in the crowded potohar lab of my university. i don’t have a clue of what accounts is, don’t know what credit is, don’t know what debit is. All i know and all thats going through my mind is that people are no more a realaible source of communication, no more a secure source of help,no more an exclusive conversator. people tend to make you believe that they care,that they understand, even asnwer your stangest of the questions and give you the best of the feelings but then they just give it all up, all you intrusted into them, and only over some other gains or satisfaction. this is where i go down, and say to myself why did i do it, why. and the only answer i get from my super ego is ,” because you thought you’re no more a loser”.
as if right now,i am the biggest false vivided person. i took for granted what i should have not and beleived that it may bring out the possitive in me but as the legend has it ” no cause, no shared feeling goes unaccounted and that there are always consequences” . and today, i happen to agree that the legend holds it true.
now, i just wait for the day when i get to hear all that i shared thinking it will stay as i described it to be from a person i don’t expect but wait its already mutating among the known fellows, i only hope for mercy as i am naive and un paralell to this hashing world and its peeps.
-I AM SHATTERED-
Nabeel Ur Rehamn Farooqi 